I'm slightly tired of looking at the last journal. Been up for what... two months?
There isnt really much else to say though, other than my UCAS is finally sent off, so I'm waiting for either rejections, or unrealisable conditional offers.... we'll see how far my personal statement will take me. Not far most likely :S
I've come to a conclusion. I know that I come to an awful lot of conclusions, especially when I'm writing journals.... but y'know. If we weren't conclusive in life then what would happen? We'd drift about in an unrealised nothingness, never understanding or experiencing anything. Anyway, back to my conclusion. I have concluded that the best way to live life is to forget about it. If you forget there is such a thing...then maybe it is within our power to forget about the future. And hopefully to forget about our pasts. How the past haunts. Sometimes even worse than the present.
Maybe forgetting about life would enable us to forget the things that hurt; the things that keep cropping up that slowly eat away. Maybe we could just take each day as it comes - forget the bad, savour the good, and continue unscathed and unaffected. If only lol...
Still. We all go through rough stages I guess. And maybe we should remember the times we were happy; the things which warmed our hearts and held us in a place devoid of pain - and hope that those times will come again. Hope we will grow up and out rather than shrinking into ourselves, and forgetting what it is like to love, to be happy, to be secure. Hope that we'll be able to see past our own selfishness and be able to do the best for all the others we love. To get past the niggling hurt inside and just be happy ourselves. Happy for ourselves. Happy for everyone else.
And Here endeth my ramble.
On a positive note.... I have tons of new music Bliss.